Dedicated to Aiden,
Eternity will never be enough
to make up for the time I haven’t spent with you
In Fanfiction
Hanahaki
is the beautiful death
by unrequited love.
Flowers growing in the airways.
The air squeezed from my lungs
as my heart lays heavy on the bed,
With that rainy musky late night scent,
and pain from your mark
as I’m pinned with my hands locked
to yours.
And the morning,
so sickeningly sweet.
Coddled to your chest and neck,
a fresh sea breeze
yet the heat
of the night before lingers.
The heat of your
skin to mine reassures me
that you give me
air – clear my lungs
of those pining petals.
My hanahaki is your absence.
Hugging the grey shirt you never said I could keep
on a bed meant for one, not
one half.
Fighting with aftergloom
so I may hold onto the embers
that were once a blazing inferno
that replaced my breath
with yours.
My hanahaki is once finding
Eden.
The entire garden brushed
with bronze, gold, and crimson
stardust.
You pressed a flower to my lips and left me
With only the taste of you
to reminisce.